January 2012
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Anonymous asked: The guys in your before pictures were they your boyfriends? how many relationships have you had with guys, and were you ever "straight"? I'm still confused about my sexual identity though i thiink that I'm attracted to pretty much every type of person. i feel like i'm the wierd one.
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connectthedots asked: I was just about to post the same as 'dowdyinsweatshirts'. They beat me to it but the point still stands you are really incredibly attractive. Not only that but also your blog is awesome.
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Just got out of therapy.
I’m terrible at typing on my phone, so bear with me please.
I met with my therapist and she gave me the results of the MMPI personality test. The session went really well and I’m going to see her on Wednesday for my letter. The test results, I feel, are mostly accurate. The only thing is I was unusually elated that day and the doctor told me to answer the questions according to how I...
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Anonymous asked: I hope you don't mind but I think you're really attractive
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healthystephie asked: Hey Ira. I understand that you might get too many questions to answer them all individually, but I just wanted to wish you luck with your operation. I'll keep my fingers crossed that all goes well for you! (PS. You're super handsome by the way ♥)
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Photoshoot planning update:
Kyle is my friend who is studying to be a fashion photographer. He and I are really close, and he’s grown a lot as a trans* ally since the beginning of our friendship (he definitely can grow more though as anyone can). I was nervous to ask him about this shoot, because I think I’d be more comfortable naked with a stranger than with a friend. It’s going well so far though.
So, we...
Planning the photoshoot with Kyle right now.
We’re hoping for other masculine folks with tittehs to get involved. Hopefully things will good well. I’m excited for this.
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So, I just made a video where I was referring to...
So, I used their username and gender neutral pronouns, but the quality of my phone isn’t so great with the mic sometimes. So, one of the times I said “their” it sounded like “her.”
I don’t like that, but I also know i didn’t misgender them either. But I also don’t want to be attacked for something I didn’t do. If I had done it, then I totally...
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Anonymous asked: If you struggle to pay rent and medication bills why would you get a personality test for $200? That seems completely unnecessary and extravagant.
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Anonymous asked: I am seriously smitten by you.
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fuckyeahalittlebitofme asked: You are hot, wish u were from the uk!
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thelovershavelied asked: I saw your post on SHYB and was looking through your pictures and saw ones of the Spectrum and a Woodbridge sweatshirt! Did you live in Irvine or just around Orange County? And if so, was it hard being transgender and living in such a conservative area? (I read the story about your family, I'm referring to friends and schoolmates and whatnot)
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celestialstatic asked: Hello Ira! I've recently come across your blog and I only want to wish you all the best luck and love! Too many anons! Anyways, you are, indeed, a very beautiful person inside and out from what I can tell so far! <3 I hope all is working out in Arizona<3 XO's from L.A., Sara.
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Anonymous asked: I wish that I could meet you in person, so that I could use all my awkward pick-up lines on you and hopefully make you think I'm cute- because, well, I think you're super cute. You're definitely one of my biggest tumblr crushes, and I always look forward to your new videos just so I can see your handsome face. (Wow, that sounded kinda stalkerish..) Anywho, unlike the last anon,...
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Anonymous asked: Will smoking mary jay affect my transition as a ftm.
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Anonymous asked: You're incredibly sexy! :-*
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Anonymous asked: Do you look down on cisgendered people?
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I'm always freaking out about money.
Rent: $200; I know it’s not much, but I also don’t make much.
Testosterone ~$50; I’m going to try and get one of those Walgreen’s prescription cards. They’re discounted to $5 this month, and they get you decent discounts on prescriptions.
Two therapy appointments: $100
Personality test: $50; it was $200, but I was only able to pay $150 yesterday.
That’s...
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Tumblr, I am so embarrassed!
I know this seems silly as someone who’s posted nudes, masturbation videos, and really personal feelings out there on the internet, but I sincerely get embarrassed really easily. I’m this weird combination of shy and outgoing that it doesn’t make any sense to most people.
Anyway, I posted a video for my singing voice 19 months on T. I played a song I really love to sing, but...
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Anonymous asked: hey ira. i have a really good friend who is a trans guy and is trying to go on T. he's definitely ready and has been trying to figure out how for a long time. the problem is, the system's so confusing and bureaucratic that he doesn't know where to start! any advice?
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Anonymous asked: I think you did a great job replying to that FTM question. You could have just stopped with "I don't like it." You know why? Because that's all that matters. It is how you identify. If you don't like it, then you don't identify with it. I am always shocked at how people can place labels on others without their consent. That question made me nauseous...I want you...
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Anonymous asked: Although I identify as trans*, lately I feel like non-binary is a better suite for me. I feel ignorant on how to describe it, and I'm sorry if asking this is offensive, but are there books/writers I should look into that may help educate me?
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Anonymous asked: On the topic of trans men using the T word. I don't think the google it test really holds water, if you google 'transsexual' the overwhelming majority of the pictures are of trans women, does this mean trans men cannot use the term? Of course not. It is more a testament to the erasure/invisibility of trans men in society.
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heyy-moon asked: I just came across your blog after I saw one of your posts reblogged by stophatingyourbody. I read your story, and I cried. I'm so sorry you had to go though all that. You are definitely a huge inspiration. For sure one of my new favorite tumblr folk. :D
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dominatedwhores asked: I have a question. As a trans person, does the testosterone you're on make your dick into something bigger at all? Or does it stay the way it is?
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dowdyinsweatshirts asked: You're extraordinarily attractive.
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Anonymous asked: So, do you have a facebook? I would love to reach out to you through there.
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closetofsongs asked: hi ira. after reading your story, i feel like it closely resembles my own. what i am looking for is advice. i am 22, not quite finished with my undergrad, living at home in a conservative area, and can't seem to see any hope for the future. my family is roman catholic. they also continue to deny my transition after 2 years of being out. i'm under constant surveillance. so here's my...
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venus-to-mars asked: Hello! Could you talk a bit about the effects of binding on your chest (from a physical standpoint apart from back/breathing problems etc)? I've been binding more recently, and although I plan on getting surgery, I don't want the appearance of my breasts to change before then.
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"Hey man, I was wondering why you don't like being...
I don’t like it, because it implies a binary and assumes my identity as “male”. I see my body as more androgynous than binary oriented. I don’t like FTM, because it feels clinical. I don’t like it, because it gives validity to the act of gender coercion, which has made my life significantly more difficult than it needs to be.
I don’t like FTM because it’s a term coined by cis people to try and...
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Test day
When I was a student in the Christian and public school systems, I was always really good at taking tests. I was the student who didn’t study but still somehow got an A. Turns out, doing homework is an essential part of your grade, so that didn’t always work out so well. My mother would test me all night the night before a test, and it’s amazing that I ever did well on anything...
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darkcloudtherainbowwarrior replied to your post: I have an appointment for tomorrow at 10:30 for that test my therapist wants me to take.
i’m worried this will be some gatekeeping bs where they want to make sure you are 100% male identified. you should call your therapist or the that receptionist back and ask what this entails before you get there so you are prepared.
I’m not worried about...
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I have an appointment for tomorrow at 10:30 for...
The receptionist said it was going to take me a couple of hours.
I’m not even really sure what this test is. We’ll see how it goes. Once it’s done, I can work on getting my letter again.
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mackderp asked: Hey man, I was wondering why you don't like being refereed to as an FTM? I mean, it's your choice, yeah, but why don't you like it?
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I am not
a “transguy”
“an FTM”
“a transgender”
transgendered
a transgendered ____.
a “transman”
binary
straight
gay
a lesbian
bisexual
tra**y
Please do not use these words to describe me. If other people want to be called these things, more power to you depending on your privilege and term reclamation and such. However, I really, really dislike...
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Anonymous asked: is there any reason you scheduled surgery before you actually had the money for it?
Anonymous asked: i just wanted to let you know you so much courage and i really look up to you your awesome
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Anonymous asked: hi ira, i was just wondering if you happened to know of the affects of going off of t? say you were on it one year but then you stopped. would, after a long period of time, everything go back to how it was before t? like, your voice change back, become more "feminine" looking and all that jazz?
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Anonymous asked: hey! um, how do you pronounce "trans"? i know this seems really obvious but. i literally don't know whether it's "trans", rhymes with pans, more similar to the word "trance", or a mixture of the two. i know i kind of pronounce "transportation" as "tranceportation" if i'm not enunciating. i feel really silly for not getting the memo.
